vampiresnemeurentpas asked: if your afraid your fiance is like your ex why are you with him?

Have you ever been in an abusive relationship? Have you ever had something so horrible happen to you, you still hold it with you today? Something you couldn’t talk about with anyone else for fear of being judged, made fun of, rejected by your friends and family and made those who you love think less of you? Have you ever been so scared of something you can’t stop thinking about it, have nightmares about it, are afraid it is going to happen again and again for no reason whatsoever? That is what I am like with relationships. My ex boyfriend raped and abused me for reasons I can’t understand. Maybe he was a damaged person or maybe he was just a plain psychopath, I don’t know why he did to me what he did but I still hold the scars, both mental and physical to this day. They shatter my self-confidence and my trust in people and the world in general and it means I cannot trust my mother, my father, my sister, my brother, my friends, my fiance, or the people I meet in the streets. Sometimes, I am so insecure I can’t bring myself to get out of bed for fear I will do something that will make someone hurt me like my ex did. My fiance would not hurt a fly. He is so sweet, so loving, he wants to spend the rest of his life with me, have children with me, he makes me feel like the most special person in the world and I know it sounds cheesy but it’s the truth. I love him to pieces. But because of what some silly man did to me in the past, I will always hold the irrational fear that all men are like my ex and will hurt me how he did. The thought of it scared me more than you could ever imagine. I have had to go through counseling for PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) CBT (cognitive behavior therapy), therapy, and none of it has worked. The problem does not lie with the fact my fiance is potentially abusive, but my mind set.

I am going to make this answer public and hope some may see it. I understand that some may have taken my original post in the way that my fiance is violent or short tempered, but it is the events of my past that have left me a shadow of my former self.

You probably weren’t expecting an essay for an answer but I think if you’re going to judge someone, you need to know the full facts, so here they are for you to make your judgement. I would appreciate if you have no empathy, you do not pester with further questions.

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8 hours ago  /  1 note

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